112325_you'll be back in no time

trying the manifesting thing again

As I write my statement of purpose, I can't help but think,

"What if all my DC trips were just a manifestation of the moment I get accepted to JHU?"

I know I'm being delusional, but if my affection for DC this year overcame my long-sought dream of moving back to California and settled my goal to move to the East Coast, then I'd say there's something going on.

I guess I can allow myself to have such thoughts if they add some fun to my application process, and I hope my friend was right about me going back in no time.

sunday scaries again, but...

I have a whole list of things I need to work on tomorrow, and with Thanksgiving coming up, I know I have to jam-pack a whole lot of work in the three days I have to work.

If it were October, I'd be panicking, having another breakdown, then joining a Teams meeting with a "Hi! Good morning!" just 3 seconds after bawling my eyes out (believe me, it has happened several times).

I won't say I don't feel anything now, but I at least have something else in my life that's going on (or two) that I can rely on/look forward to outside of work: my grad school application and half-marathon.

looking ahead

Since I ran 28-point-something kilos this past week, my goal for the upcoming week is a 10% increase, so around 30-31 kilos. As someone who used to run a whole lot more than that, I feel like a baby going back to lower mileage weeks, but after that IT band situation, I learned the hard way to play it safe rather than sorry. Hopefully wfh-ing tomorrow can get me some early-week kilos under my feet.

Ael